I am desensitized.
There. I said it.
There is so much tragedy, death, violence, and nonsensical crap happening in this world so often that we just don’t care anymore.
That’s not fair. It’s not that we don’t care. We just get so used to hearing about bad things happening that it has become a way of life. It’s normal. It’s expected.
I’ve been thinking back to the last year and all the tragedy and loss of life that has surrounded me almost as if I were in a bubble. The Thomas fire occurred very close to where I live and then months later the Camp fire happened next to my hometown and directly devastated friends and family. It decimated the town of Paradise.
We hear about the mass shootings on the news all the time. Last year there was a smaller scale shooting that occurred at a mall I frequent with my kids. There was a shooting at The Borderline which is also not far from where I live and a place my friend and I talked about going out to dance soon. I was at a Walmart with my kids the day before the shooting occurred at the Walmart in El Paso.
All of this tragedy keeps happening around me and yet I remain unscathed. Why? How is that fair? It also gives me massive amounts of anxiety. How much longer can I remain safe? What if the next time I take my kids to the store we are one of the unlucky ones? What if something happens to my son at school? I hate having these thoughts but I’ve been having them more and more lately.
Something has to change. Whether you believe it’s stricter gun control, whether you believe it’s mental illness we need to focus on, whether you believe it starts at home with what we teach our children…something has to change.
All I know is that it’s sad and terrible and it shouldn’t happen. All I know is that I love my kids and would do anything to protect them.
So if you are like me…and waking up to the fact that this has become ‘normal’ for us…what can we do to change things? What can we do period?
We can continue to choose love and hope. We can continue to rise up and support those in their time of need. In the midst of devastating fires we can donate food, clothes, supplies, money, etc. We can listen to those affected as they share their stories.
In the midst of tragic mass shootings we can rally to love on those affected. We can denounce racism, violence, hatred. We can use it as a moment to teach our children that you should not hate others because of where they are from or what they look like.
I don’t intend for this to turn into a political post. I hate the ‘us vs them’ mentality that it plays into. I don’t believe everything is black and white.
I do believe in equality. I believe in treating others with respect. I believe in loving your neighbor despite their sexual orientation, their race, their political leanings.
And I believe that you should be able to take your kids out without the fear that you could be gunned down by a racist, hateful person. But unfortunately, that is the world we now live in.
I know that we should fight with everything within us for this not to become ‘our normal’. We should be heartbroken when these things happen. We should be angry. We should be having the real hard discussions about how and why these tragedies occur and what we can do to prevent them.
We can no longer remain indifferent to tragedy. I wish I had all the answers. I don’t. I’m just a mom who loves her kids. I’m just a person who would never intentionally hurt anyone and can’t understand the mindset of someone who would. I do denounce racism, violence, and hatred.
Something has to change.