5 days to 30 and I am feeling good.
I’m not sure what’s changed in the last year, particularly the last few months, but I am finally in a place where I feel really good about myself. I feel like I know me. I like who I am. I’m not so concerned with what others think of me.
For the first time in a long time I do not feel weighed down by anxiety or panic. I feel well mentally. I feel happy. I am enjoying my time with my kids this summer and feel like I have a handle on things.
I don’t find myself dwelling on the past as much. I don’t feel the need to rehash, talk about, or try to analyze it. I feel at peace. I feel like I am at a place where when I do think of the past it does not fill me with bitterness like it used too. I am grateful for what I have experienced and what I have learned from it.
I finally feel like I have a voice. Perhaps that can be credited to this blog, but I feel like I can speak up and that crippling fear of rejection and abandonment is not always present. I don’t have to walk on eggshells around people. I can speak my mind and if someone does not agree it is okay.
I have heard before that your 30’s are the best years of your life. I would love it if this is true. I suppose I will find out. If anyone can attest to this “fact” please enlighten me. Regardless I am happy to be in a place of contentment and I am looking forward to my birthday celebration this weekend.